Steps of a Dancewriter - Reunion

Hearing DS talk about his experiences at the ranch and his thought process during this period has been enlightening these last few days since his return. Sobriety has given him the chance to stand back and look at his past choices and analyze them, see the domino effect they had on so many people in his life as well as what those choices did to his mind, body and spirit. Hearing him talk about those things is like talking to a middle aged man. He's still a seventeen year old in many ways--especially emotionally--but he's had some major life experiences so far. He's very astounded at his own behaviors. And I have to admit, so am I. When he shares truths about the way he was, I feel like I'm listening to an audio excerpt from Law and Order, or Criminal Intent.

He's grown in many ways. I'm very pleased for him in this regard. It's nice having him home here again. He's learned some new habits that I hope he'll choose to keep for the rest of his life as they will bring him satisfaction.

During his process of using, he lost most of his friends. This is the hardest part. He understands why they slowly left him behind -- for their own safety. As a mother, I wouldn't have wanted myh child around him either, yet my other 2 DS's were. The loss of friends is difficult for him and I hope he can find new ones before the temptation to hang with old users ( who were not classified as friends, but users to him ) becomes too great.

This integral link of friendship is what binds all of us and for some making friends is not easy. My prayers have shifted now, in hopes that this link is strong and that the hand of fellowship is extended to him by some new people somewhere and that he will be brave enough to take it.

Thanks to those of you who have listened to my open heart on this subject, and have been my friend. I've felt your support,caring and concern, and love.